"I’d pick you again tomorrow, the day after, every life, every fucking scenario that could ever be plausible, I’d take you every single time because I am fucking in love with you. I said things that I regret, things that hurt you, they’re words that I wish I could take back and mend into something that’d make you smile beautifully. You probably don’t think of me, hell, you probably won’t even read this, but why not take a chance to scream into oblivion? I am in love with you, you probably don’t love me though, but I’ll wait, remember? every time you broke me into pieces, I promised I’d wait, you told me it wasn’t healthy but I’m just in love with you, sometimes I honestly fail to see the difference. We were perfect, you know, perfectly imperfect with flawed timing. The happiness you gave me.. it was ethereal, honestly it kills me knowing that I couldn’t requite what you gave me. I’m sorry, I’m in love with you,
I want you back."
Hayden Cooper - “I am still in love with you, I’m sorry”
Fuck you for trying to invalidate how I felt and feel about you. You cant just say it wasn’t real because you dont want the responsibility of ending something that was amazing. I know it was real. I would have married you and we would have had kids. I think we would have done all right. People say you should marry your best friend, and that was you without a doubt. It was real. It was the realest thing in my life, you were the only thing that mattered.
I can only move forward
Its 2 in the morning and I’m all alone and I hate everything, especially you. I’m so alone, and I miss everyone, especially you.
"I have this strange feeling that I’m not myself anymore. It’s hard to put into words, but I guess it’s like I was fast asleep, and someone came, disassembled me, and hurriedly put me back together again. That sort of feeling."
Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart
"I’m jealous of all the people that get to meet you, hold you and touch you. It kills me that I was once the person who knew all of your secrets and now I’m one of them."
I had a dream about you last night. It was the first really happy dream that I had about you in a long time. Things were different, we were different but everything was better. Then I woke up.